Yes yes. Friday, October 2, 2009

You're waiting for this post huh. Soo sorry but you're not gonna get the post you're looking for. I'm not gonna wallow in emo-ness and sadness neither will I be smug and haughty.

As crazy as it may sound, i realised that i do have friends who would love me for who I am. Crazy bitch and all. I try not to let haters get to me but its when i try so hard to make friends it just backfires when you realise they're all pretending to be your friend for some reason. I mean come on, if you have a problem you dont go hating me in silence. I have ears, i would listen if you told me my flaws. I apologise if i have offended you but if you're being all hating in silence how would I ever know? Its very unfair to say the least.

So ANYWAY, its times like these when you appreciate what friends you have.


I do not understand myself. Neither do i expect people to forgive me for my selfish decisions.

I wonder if i would look back on myself and regret some things i chose to do. Why does everything i do feel right to me, but seems to be soo wrong in the eyes of the others.

Hope i can find myself before i’m too lost.

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× §ẃaяħ × says:
i think you already have a bunch of friendslike calvin, si wei, mel, mercy, tracy, sarah and myself we can't shower you with affection all the time because we're not very affectionate peoplebut we'll do our best.. that's what i think
§ħąŘĽęňĕ§iëŘŖā ~ says:
yeah
but i try you knowi know i have you guys
but ugh, i dont know..
× §ẃaяħ × says:
but we're not there right? we're not in sp with you
so it's different
you need people there and then
and you can make friends... and even if people don't like you now
× §ẃaяħ × says:
i'm sure they'll see your merits eventually

Thats what I'm hoping.